Tag: frustration
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Triggers
This morning, a seemingly insignificant verbal exchange triggered me intensely. I didn’t really understand why in the moment, but I was instantly heart-pounding-out-of-my-chest, head-throbbing, ready-to-explode, upset. I needed to catch my breath. I stepped outside, felt the shock of cool rain drizzle onto my bare arms and face and felt like I had run a…
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Broken
The vice grip on my head tightens. My temples pulse; the throbbing pain trails down the side of my neck to where my shoulders connect. I am acutely aware of the ache in my jaw, and realize I have been grinding my teeth. My gums are swollen and bruised from the trauma. My eyeballs feel…
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Time
From my left, the quiet chime of M’s alarm interrupts my sleep cycle at a stage unfamiliar to me in its depth. I feel him sit up to mute the rising volume, and I’m suddenly aware of the sound of my Rain Rain app, from my right. I reach up to peel my eye mask back, bracing…
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Balancing Stressors
When you’ve spent your entire life trying to help and fix, to be the responsible take-charge initiator in any crisis, it’s physically maddening to resist the urge when one presents itself at your feet. I sit here staring at the glow of my laptop screen, hoping that I can purge myself of these spiralling thoughts…